A Positive Negative

the test and the day

yep, thats it folks - I'm not pregnant
good news I suppose :)

anyway
had a ton of fights with the BF today
but we're all good
surprisingly I didn't binge
which I usually do when I'm upset or angry

I felt the need to a few times
but that voice in my head stopped me
told me I don't need it
that I can survive
and I did
I'm going well now
all I need is a set of scales to see my weight

- cereal = 200
- beans on toast = 243
- McDonald’s lean beef burger w/o the meat = 200ish (over estimate to be safe)

TOTAL = 643

so bad day with good results :)

love, hugs and thin vibes ^_^
xxx

Good Day

INTAKE:
- light rye vegemite toast = 82
- beans on toast = 243
- vegie schnitzel = 142
- vegies = 23

TOTAL = 490

happy with that I am :)
although
I am going drinking tonight
I'll count my drinks and figure out the calories tomorrow
Hopefully I wont fuck up too badly

love, hugs and thin vibes!
xxx

EDIT: drinking was cancelled, total calories for today remains at 490 ^_^

hooray!

well
I have the flu
no, it is NOT swine flu
haha, although my dad accused me of that XD

but
good news!
I'm below 45kg!
44.9kg
and that was after eating this morning actually
so maybe smaller
we shall see what tomorrow brings

it seems to be coming off easier now :)
and no one is making any comment about me being "too thin"
or "not eating enough"
which I am thankful about

I'm not really counting anymore
I do know how much I consume every day
but I just don't really worry too much about it
I prefer to stay inder 600cal if I can

but if I go over alittle, I don't really freak out
I'm still losing
and I'm eating 'enough' so that nobody cares
I have a good feeling about this
things are going well at the moment

I hope you're all having as good a luck as me
love to all

xxx

finally broken 46...

well
I'm down under 46kg
45.4kg
thats basically 100lbs!
I'm so close I can almost taste it

funny tho
I can see bones in my shoulders
which looks good
but my stomach hasn't changed much.
maybe its because I have muscle there...
the martial arts instructor insists I do 20 situps and 20 pushups every night so that I get good at them
so I have been
and I have scary stomach muscles now
hehe

I will get there
we will all get there

stay strong my dears
love to you all
<3
xxx

Success

Since Wednesday, I have been REALLY recording my cal intake
I mean properly
no lying to myself
none of that

I feel like posting it here
along with my weight on each day too


Wednesday 01.04.09 = 48.5kg/107lbs, 340cal
Thursday 02.04.09 = 48kg/105.8lbs, 971.5cal
Friday 03.04.09 = 47.8kg/105.3lbs, 460cal
Saturday 04.04.09 = 47.4kg/104.5lbs, 570cal


it is now Sunday, I have just had my 'breakfast' (its 11:30 lol)
I had Special K - the one with the choc flakes - and some skim milk (184cal)
my weight this morning
was 46.9kg - thats about 103.4lbs for those of you who don't get kg's
so I've lost nearly 4lbs since Wednesday
while having really odd cal intakes
oh well
I'm happy with that
I'm actually losing properly now
hooray!

stay strong
xxx

And the virdict is...

I'm down to 48kg (just under 106lbs)
hooray for low-cal days
had the same breakfast this morning as yesterday
ate it a bit earlier though - about 8:30am
its 11am at the moment
still feel like exploding

I guess I will have to see what the day brings :)
fingers crossed that I can control myself though
I'm going to try for nothing until dinner
because I don't know what dinner will be

my muscles hurt from last night
stomach muscles are so sore that it hurts to sneeze
LOL
ah well, it was good :)

stay strong
xxx

GOOD DAY

Well, I've proved to myself that I can do it
I haven't eaten since 2:30pm
its is currently 10pm
I'm still full
don't want anything to eat
despite the fact that I just spent an hour and a half learning to fight off people twice my weight

for breakfast at 9am I had
1 weetabix (65), crushed and layered with black cherry yogurt (70) = 135

for a snack at 1pm I had
french vanilla yogurt = 70

and for lunch at 2:30pm I had
1 weetabix (65), crushed and layered with french vanilla yogurt (70) = 135

and thats all
I feel good
340cal total
I've never kept it that low and felt fine
tomorrow I hope the scales will be nice to me

wish me luck
stay strong, think skinny
xxx